A Mother's Love

As I sit here on a quiet Sunday afternoon I'm able to record my thoughts and feelings from the past few days. A few days ago Grant and I were sitting in an ultrasound room, and the first thing I said to the tech was "We want to know the gender." Both Grant and I had been anxiously awaiting this day of when we could FINALLY shift from calling our baby "it" to "he" or "she."

Going into the ultrasound I thought we were going to have a girl. Not just thought--I said that I would be in total shock if it was a boy. I've always thought our first child would be a girl (even before I was pregnant). I didn't WANT a girl, I just always felt like our first one would be a girl, so you can imagine my surprise when the ultrasound popped up and it was a BOY! I got an instant smile across my face, got teary-eyed, and just looked over at Grant who was beaming! 

As we went through the ultrasound we got to see his cute feet, strong arms and legs, we got to see the 4 chambers of his heart, and we even got a shot of him waving at us while we were looking at his face. It really hit me that our child is growing healthy and strong, and in just a few short months I would be holding this piece of Heaven in my arms.

Within a period of about 5 seconds, my mind was racing about how much I loved this boy, how he would be when he was little, what it'd be like when he was in high school. I imagined him opening up his mission call, meeting a wonderful woman to be sealed to her in the temple, thought to myself how hard it would be for me to see him go through heartache and trials and so forth. And then I thought, "How in the WORLD am I going to raise a boy?! I don't know the first thing about being a mom!" 

And then, a feeling of gratitude overwhelmed me. I was so grateful that I married Grant and had him by my side to raise our children. Anyone who has seen Grant around kids knows that he will be an amazing father--I get comments from my siblings all the time as they watch Grant play with their children about how lucky I am and how wonderful he will be with children. 

I was then filled with a feeling of peace. I knew that Heavenly Father was going to be by our side in raising our family. The scripture came to my mind that said "I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up." (D&C 84:88). I remembered that as long as we had Heavenly Father on our side, we could raise up a righteous posterity. And yes, the past 3 paragraphs all raced through my mind in 5 seconds. 

These past few days have been wonderful! As I've felt our baby boy move around more and more and as we've been looking at baby boy clothes in stores and online, it really hit me that we are going to have a son. I am so grateful for the chance I'll have to be the mother of a boy and have the chance to raise him up to be strong, hard-working, and diligent in the gospel--all with my husband by my side and with the Lord guiding both Grant and me.

So, to my dear baby boy--Mom and Dad love you so much and we're excited to meet you!